Archive for February, 2008

Hillary Speaks for Me
February 26, 2008

So, it seems that Barack Obama has momentum on his side.  It seems that if he can win the Texas and Ohio primaries, then he will be the Democratic nominee.   It seems that I’m the only one who still can’t back Barack.   At least it seemed that way to me until I went to this website:

It seems that there are thousands of people out there who are still supporting Hillary.  Thank God!  I truly believe that the best choice for our country is Hillary Clinton.   I don’t believe that Obama would be a bad president, I just don’t believe that he would be as good as Hillary.

And, let me just say that I know that over the past week, it has seemed silly for the Clinton campaign to make a big deal about Obama’s speeches not being original, but I get it.   Obama has motivated people because they believe that he believes his words, but honestly they aren’t his words.   Now, I know that “borrowing” words is nothing new.  But, it’s not just one to two phrases.  It’s multiple phrases, entire passages from speeches given by other politicians, authors and even movie scripts. 

This, along with his incorrect fliers about Hillary’s plan to acheive universal health care, and involvement with his involvement with that crooked politician in Chicago, really makes me wonder, can I support him if he is the Democratic nominee?  I don’t know.  Here’s hoping that the best person, no matter who it is, will emerge as the Democratic nominee and eventual president.

Weight Loss to Date: 9 lbs.
February 16, 2008

So, today was my weigh-in at Weight Watchers. 

This is the second full week that I’ve been back on the program.   I’m not going to lie, it was a bit harder this week.  I actually dipped into my 35 flex points, which I try not to do.  I blame it on Valentine’s Day.   You can only resist chocolate for so long before you give in, even if it is sugar-free.

After a long week of temptation, I’m happy to say that I lost 2 1/2 lbs. this week.  Combined with last week’s 6 1/2 lbs., that brings my total weight loss to 9 lbs. since starting back on the program two weeks ago.

Now, I totally realize that I have a great support system in my family and friends.   My buddy Bryan has actually enlisted people to sponsor my weight loss.  When I reach a sponsored “milestone” one of my friends is going to do something nice for me.  I reach my first milestone at 15 lbs.  My friend Loria has committed to go to a movie with me, my choice.   Various other friends have committed to different things, to help keep me motivated, including being called “LaMar the Great” for 24 hours.

I feel that I have the eating part down, now I just have to work on the exercise part.  Just to be clear, I HATE exercise.  Always have, always will.   However, I know that it is needed not only for my weight loss, but to help me return to a healthy life-style.   Bryan has committed me to doing some sort of physical activity two nights next week.   Again, I realize how lucky I am to have my friends supporting me.

Here’s hoping that I can get to the 15 lb. mark before “Horton Hears a Who” is released.

Reason, Season or Lifetime
February 13, 2008

I’ve seen this many times before, and I always seem to take away something different from it.  My email box at work was too big and I had to delete some of my older emails.  While cleaning it out, I came across this.  I hope you enjoy it and take something away from it.

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.  Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life. May God hold you in the palm of His hand and Angels watch over you.

Hillary’s Letter to The Gays
February 11, 2008

An Open Letter to the LGBT Community: I Want to Be Your President!    
by Senator Hillary Clinton   

As I have traveled around the country these past twelve months, what I sensed in my heart has been confirmed. America is embracing its LGBT sons and daughters with an acceptance and understanding as never before.

On the campaign trail, a father of a gay son will ask about ending Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell. A woman will ask why she can be discriminated against just because of who she is. Sometimes they wait furtively for the crowd to thin and then whisper their confidences in a soft voice and sometimes they stand up proudly at town meetings and want me to share my views on how I will help lead the change to assure that this country fulfills its promise to everyone.

Let me tell you what I have been telling voters across America. I am fully committed to the fair and equal treatment of LGBT Americans. For seven long years, the Bush Administration has tried to divide us – only seeing people who matter to them. It’s been a government of the few, by the few, and for the few. And no community has been more invisible to this administration than the LGBT community.

I will change that. The best evidence of what I will do as President is what I have already done.

I am proud of my record as First Lady, as a U.S. Senator and as a candidate for President in working toward the fair and equal treatment of LGBT Americans.

· I am proud that as Chair of the Senate Democratic Steering and Outreach Committee in 2006, I worked closely with LBGT community to develop a smart strategy that defeated the Federal Marriage Amendment. I am proud of fighting the FMA as divisive wedge politics at its worst.

· I am proud to be a co-sponsor of the Employment Non-Discrimination Act, the Matthew Shepard Local Law Enforcement Hate Crimes Prevention Act, and the Domestic Partnership Benefits and Obligation Act which would grant the same benefits (including health insurance) to domestic partners of federal employees that are currently offered to employees’ legal spouses.

· I am proud to have authored the Early Treatment for HIV Act, which expands access to vital treatment options for low-income individuals living with HIV, and fought to fully fund the Ryan White CARE Act.

· I am proud that I hired a National Director of LGBT Outreach within a month of announcing my candidacy for President and to have openly gay and lesbian staffers serving at all levels of my campaign.

· I am proud to have a National LGBT Steering Committee of over 130 that includes openly LGBT elected officials, Board members and opinion leaders on issues ranging from transgender rights, to HIV/AIDS, to “Don’t Ask Don’t Tell”.

· I am proud to have marched in Gay Pride parades as both First Lady and as Senator and to have spoken in front of so many LGBT audiences ranging from the Human Rights Campaign, Empire State Pride Agenda, the Hetrick Martin Institute, PFLAG (Parents, Families, and Friends of Lesbians and Gays), GMHC (Gay Men’s Health Crisis), and the American Foundation for AIDS Research.

· I am proud to have fought Republican efforts to demonize and marginalize the LGBT community, and I will continue to do that as President.

We have so much work to do. When I am President, we will work together to make sure that all Americans in committed relationships have equal benefits and that nothing stands in the way of loving couples who want to adopt children in need. We’re going to expand our federal hate crimes legislation and pass the Employment Non-Discrimination Act and assure that they are both fully inclusive of sexual orientation and gender identity and expression. And finally, we will put an end to the failed policy of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell. Courage, honor, patriotism and sacrifice – the traits that define our men and women in uniform – have nothing to do with sexual orientation.

My father was a conservative Republican, who held very traditional views for much of his life. Yet in his last years, it was a gay couple who lived next door who provided much of the compassion and comfort he and my mother needed as he grew ill. And it was that same neighbor who held his hand as he died. If my father can move, America can move.

To each and every LGBT American, I say this. You have done so much to help this country understand your lives by simply being open and honest about who you are and living your lives with dignity. Thank you for your courage. It is time that we recognize your hard work. I know that this country is ready for changes in the law that reflect the evolution in our hearts.

America deserves a President who appeals to the best in each of us, not the worst; a President who values and respects all Americans and treats all Americans equally no matter who they are or who they love. I want to be that President. I want to be your President.

A New Place to Nap
February 10, 2008

So, Wayne and I both got our tax refunds this week.   And, the money didn’t come a moment too soon.   There are several things that we really need to use it toward.  First and foremost, we needed new living room furniture.   Our couch is totally on it’s last leg.  It’s about to break down.  Our chair is still in pretty good shape, though.  

Yesterday we went furniture shopping.   Now this is not the first time that Wayne and I have shopped for furniture together.  It seems that we have two different approaches to it:  I’m all about function and comfort, Wayne’s all about aesthetic and how it “flows” with the room.  We wound up at Ashley Furniture.   If there is an upside to being on the edge of a recession, it’s that most retailers have slashed prices, including furniture retailers.   I was excited because we were able to get Ashley Furniture quality with Funiture Factory Outlet prices.

Wayne and I found a nice, comfy, olive green micro-fiber sofa for just under $400.   Then, because the chair we have doesn’t really go with the sofa, and because I’ve really wanted one for years, I talked Wayne into looking at recliners.  Well, I’m happy to say that we were able to find one that both he and I liked.   It was comfortable for me and didn’t look like an “old man’s” recliner for Wayne.   Since he didn’t hate it, Wayne “let” me buy it.

Because we can’t fit these items in the back of the Cruiser, we opted to have them delivered.  Unfortunately, the store is having to order both items from the factory, so we won’t get our new furniture for a couple of weeks.

Here’s hoping that those two weeks pass quickly.

Go Back to Folding Shirts, Dude
February 9, 2008

So, it should be no surprise to anyone that I’m not a Republican.   Now, I’m not necessarily a Democrat, I’m more of an Independent.  I’ll vote for whoever I think the best person for the job is.  (In the last state-wide election, I actually voted for a Republican.)  It’s should also be no surprise that if you ask my opinion I’ll give it to you. 

Tonight, I’m speaking with a friend at a retail store about politics (specifically why I voted for Hillary), when one of the employees that I’ve never even spoken to decided to put in his opinion.  Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind someone giving me their opinion, however I do have a problem when some ass-munch breaks into a conversation that I’m having, tells me that I’m wrong, that I don’t know what I’m talking about, and then refuses to even listen to anything that I say.

Look, if you are strong enough in your convictions to give people your uninvited opinion, you should be strong enough to at least engage the other person. 

Here’s hoping that this guy finds some rat poop in his hot dog.

How the Hell Did THIS Happen? AGAIN?!?!
February 9, 2008

So, honestly, I’ve been fat almost my whole life.

Up until the age of six, I was your “average” kid size.   Not too fat, not too skinny.  Then, during summer of 1978, we went to visit my Gramma in California.  My Gramma was one of those grammas that you see on TV shows like Leave It to Beaver or Mayberry RFD.   At that point, she only had two grandchildren:  me and my brother.   I was six and he was twelve so I got spoiled a bit more and I got to eat ANYTHING I wanted.  That summer, I went from being average sized to being fat.

I stayed in the fat zone all the way through elementary and high school.  For those of you who have been there, you know that this zone is littered with things like Husky Brand jeans (the offical jean of little fat boys), jersey t-shirts (because you don’t have to tuck them in) and lots of Little Debbie snack cakes (I now believe she’s the Anti-Christ).

So, I was a fat kid, who became a fat teenager, who grew up to be a fat adult.   All through high school and college, I was overweight, but I was never morbidly obese.  Then in the late 90’s and early 00’s, I just started packing on the pounds.  At my heaviest, I weighed more than 350 lbs.   At that point, when you weight more than you’ve ever weighed before… when you’re so big that you can’t fit on the rides at an amusement park… when you have to have a seatbelt extender… you have to ask yourself, “How the hell did this happen?”

Then, in September 2005, we joined Weight Watchers.  For those of you that aren’t familiar with WW, it’s not really a diet, it’s an eating plan.  The great thing about WW is that you can eat anything you want, you just have to stay within the guidelines of the program.  Another biggie of the program is to make sure you’re following healthy eating habits: getting enough dairy and veggies, drinking your water, working essential oils into your diet along with vitamins.  I highly recommend the program.  As I lost the weight, one by one, the health problems I had been experiencing  began to disappear: acid reflux, high blood pressure, sleep apnea and even my diabetes.

Between September of 05 and November of 06, I went from 350 to 197.  I lost over a 150 lbs.  When I was at my thinnest, people constantly told me that I was too thin.  I needed to gain some weight.  Well, unfortunately, that’s what I did.   I totally stopped following the healthy eating habits that I learned from WW.  Between December of 06 and last month, I put back on a lot of the weight.  

At the end of January, I took a good look at where I was with my health.  My weight has ballooned up to 286 lbs.   My health problems were returning.  And, I was having to squeeze into my fat pants.    So, I had to ask myself, “How the hell did this happen, AGAIN?”

Well, I knew the answer so I headed back to WW.   I weighed in at 286 lbs and almost died!  OMG!  Well, during the last week, I did my best and stayed within my points allotment on all days except one, and then on that day I only used two of my flex points.   So, when I weighed in this morning, I was very happy to hear that I had lost 6.5 lbs!  I only have 79.5 lbs. left to lose.

Here’s hoping that I won’t be too bitchy during the next year.

Way of the Gunn
February 7, 2008

So, I’m totally crushing on someone right now. 

He’s an older, but very distinguished man.   He’s sexy, smart, well dressed, handsome and super chic.   He’s Tim Gunn, the mentor on Bravo’s Project Runway and Tim Gunn’s Guide to Style.

Look, he’s only 19 years older than I am.  Don’t get me wrong, I still love my husband, but I’d be thrilled to have him as my sugar daddy.

Here’s hoping I can “make it work.”